for how else could i be haunted months after you've gone?
at first it stung wandering through this world alone after belonging to you for so long every song cried out your name i had to plug my ears for peace and quiet
and then slowly and with tremendous subtleness it got easier the nights were not plagued with memories i reclaimed the streets we once walked on i created my own religion away from you and everything you reminded me of
i found solace in getting to know myself when the host is gone, who is the parasite, really? i climbed into myself and found all the things you loved about me and all the things you learned to hate
it takes a long time to forgive someone who broke your heart but a longer time to forgive yourself for allowing it. the heartbreak didn't scar me; instead, it was like the time i sprained my knee in the second grade it felt like i was dying in the moment until weeks later it didn't
and now the only reminder i have of that day is the soreness i feel every winter when it's cold and my body remembers what my mind forgot