Woken at 07:45 hours, this day as every for the past God-knows-how-many mornings. He stopped counting months ago. Familiar shouts and clattering, steel on steel. Heβs never been in such constant company. If he canβt see them, he can hear them. If he cant hear them, he can smell them. Two hundred and fifty God-forsaken souls bouncing off the concrete walls.
And yet, never has he been so lonely. In the middle of this swirl of doing, coming and going, he plays the game of acquaintance, unpleasant pleasantries exchanged on the landings when custom, advantage and survival says he must. But he dreams of solitary, a box just for him. A place of quiet, or quiet as it gets.
Lonely for solitude and spiritual guidance, gently closing the door while all others slam. Lonely for recognition, his currency no use where his is now, he trades in sensitivity, not noise and bravado. Lonely for connection, the true self hidden, protected by ever thickening walls of stoicism and cynicism from which the heart may never escape again.
Bells ring, doors open. Saturday association, and solitude wishes will have to wait.