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When I tell you I feel so excluded
Always looked at from the inside
When I’m looking in on the outside
Are you ******* happy now
Expect cooperation with out even a sound
When you feel the need to be controlling
If only you knew but I don’t think you care about the rolling
Tears from my eyes
Poetry hasn’t come out for a long time lost between the lines
If only I could rewind
All the moments
You made me feel like ****
And I will never feel like your equivalent
If I could say I don’t hate you a little bit id lie
You can’t look me in my eye
Why
Do you feel the need to treat me like a child
Like my mind is mild
Treat my words like they are idle
When you are constantly unaware of the trials
Maybe I don’t tell you cause you don’t see my pain
Each thing I feel you think of it in vein
Lack of substance or worth that’s how you feel
Most times more than I like.. cannot heal
i don’t gaf how she feels I heard what you said
Those words loud and clear repeat through my head
I pray  against the spirt of not feeling good enough
When its you most days who make me feel rough
You shush my words then say I feel invisible
Then you turn around and act so insensible
Unaware of the things you do but I don’t speak
For a long time thought it cause I was weak
But maybe its because I can hold on and make it seem so calm
When I can Chanel everything in the mist of palms
I love and I hate
What to do at this rate
You wonder why I don’t speak when I feel like the main ones don’t listen
I silence  you all wonder why while in inner spirts are hissin
Louder and louder
I hate my encounters…

I hate it all . . .