I hold my breath a minute too long

Waiting for that crash to come

Instinct takes over

Ignoring my heart

Working against me

As I'm falling apart


Why can't I let this lifetime go

And simply float away

Removing myself from my body

Never living another day.


If suffocation cannot save me

Then perhaps I cannot die

I'll lay here for eternity

As the world just passes by.


The days are now a dull black and white

Sometimes awful shades of grey

Yet no matter how I beg for it

I cannot slip away


If only I could close my eyes

And will my heart to stop

This battle would be quickly over

My victory on top

When everything is dark and quiet

I'll hold my breath again

And pray for mercy on my heart

That the pain will finally end.