I need you to make it through today.
Perk me up; don’t let me
Down
Hard
Again. I want to be full
Of your warmth. Sweet scent. Texture.
Every time.
Every time, thoughts percolate
Until they’re bubbling with rationale.
It’s a good idea. I need it.
Wrap my hands around you
And become intoxicated as I bring you to my lips.
Racing heart! Breathless! Stomach turns! Alive!
Anxious-
You drive me mad.
Bitter dregs of your company not worth
The dark ring left
On my once white napkin.
Empty sugar packet on the table,
But nothing could’ve helped.
Appetite gone, routine broken, my mind
Wide awake.