I don’t want to be taken care of.
I don’t want to not own my life
have someone else give me what I need

I want to be sufficient on my own
Be my own
Live for my own

I want to want from no one
No one to disappoint
And none to disappoint me
Let my hopes and expectations rise
Only to watch them fall time and time again
Get shot out of the sky

Just a little bird
Just trying to fly
No thought of dangers around
Yet always without fail
Yanked back down to the ground

If I could care less
I wouldn’t care
I could feel as much as I want to when it’s convenient
Because when it’s not
It hurts
I hurt
It makes me cry
And I don’t like to cry
Not because of other people, at least
If I cry, let it be my fault
Not because I’m weak
I let other people make me weak
I care too much
It hurts more when I don’t have control
I want to cry because of me
It hurts when I’m so weak that I break down because of somebody else


And I always will


I want to not get attached
Because the attachment always seems to get severed
And that hurts
I always get left
I get left just as soon as I attach
So maybe the solution is to not attach
But I don’t think that’s possible for me
I don’t think I’m capable of that
So instead
I’ll always get sad



I’ll always get feeling stuck
I’m mad
I need other people to make me feel better
But then I feel bad
It’s not their problem
But I need so much support
Why isn’t that okay?
They’re okay with it
Why can’t I let it be okay?

It’s because I feel like I can’t handle anything