i used to think all i had to do to move on was to find someone new

nobody would ever want to to admit that it cuts a little deeper
when they don't make me feel like how i felt with you:

secure, wanted, loved.

i wonder if they find it just as obvious
that when i kiss them

there's that feeling that they're not kissing back
and at some point i refuse to open my eyes because of the fear that theirs are open.

and they say sweet things like you did
and despite wanting to, i can't bring myself to believe
that they mean the things they say like you meant them