i think about the video games i've bought as an adult trying to relive the joy i felt as a kid

they weren't dreadful to play; i just didn't feel the same playing them as i did before

so i turn off the game and never pick it up again because i don't really have the desire to play anymore

so then at night when i go to bed and even when the day was good

sometimes i romanticize the idea that i could just turn the game off and fall asleep forever

because i'm not curious about the ending anymore