i want to cuddle you in the pitch black and know that i am safe
i see plenty thousands of people my exact age with people they love or they wanna spend more time with i ache i want you so bad but who the heck will you be?
i want to be so engulfed in you that i can’t speak to you dream of you or lay awake with you cause my heart will burn and cause the cream bedsheets to become the same exact color as the fire my heart contains
i want to be able to kiss you in the midday rain pieces of you fit in me glued together
i want to be so far gone that if you break my heart i will throw a fit and tantrum resorting back to who i was at five or six years old
i want to talk to you for hours upon hours forgetting that time means anything more than numbers becoming so invested that the words i write can only ever be your name
i want to walk with you in the gloom of the three a.m drunk hour wasted on each other’s smiles giggling and chasing after one another like in a chic flic dreaming in radiant and gorgeous colors all over our clueless yet satisfied expressions
and all i really want is to be able to lay by you and not worry about not making a peep be whole be full be you around me i didn’t sign up for another you are the only you are you and i am in love with the ashes and madness and nightmares and insignificance and flashes and outlandishness and you mr. beyond sadness lay with me in the hush of the nighttime your flesh and mine and only two hands holding the flow together you and i once i have no worry or anxiety that’s when i know you will love me unconditionally