down leaving small imprints of me on the ground running from shadows cast by the moonlight im sure if i was the ocean id feel waves undulating inside of me drifting apart and crashing together pregnant with a stormy sea feeling the contractions gather tightly and then dissipate slowly if only it were that unconscious an effort to let tension go naturally, i want to be a woman with a young happy heart that thinks it will beat forever i want to be a woman that loves all the small things usually left unnoticed and taken for granted like finding a broken seashell that you can hold up to your ear and still hear the beach i want to be like the water flowing or sitting still with all its different temperaments (mostly sanguine) i want to be the lotus that struggles upstream, against the current blooming along the way...
when i close my eyes i long to see the universe on the backs of my eyelids i long to dance while im dreaming but not when im sleeping but when im feeling more alive than i have ever felt when i am loving more than i could have ever loved when i am flying without actually leaving the ground when i am singing without making a sound when i seem lost