i pray that you miss me so much that it causes physical pain
miss me for being shorter than you
please look for me in every single crowd
even when i walk downtown
i wish that your car would drive by
and you could call me pretty to your mom

i pray you miss my witty humor
or the way i didn’t put up with your crap
you better miss me so much that you start to hate me  
and then relapse and love me again

you have to miss me
i can’t feel empty and hollow in your memories
your amygdala better not regret me
better not forget me

i pray you will miss me laughing at you
or having an awkward silence cause we had so much tension
miss me and remember me in the ways you tease other girls
and play with their curls
miss me in the way you call other women by nicknames but they aren’t as cool as mine
miss me in the blanks of your imagination
did you ever dream of me while asleep?

i pray you won’t be clueless when my name is brought up in conversation
don’t forget you liked me in fourth grade
miss me in the way you can’t seem to erase my name cause i am haunting you
miss me in the sparks and flames and infatuation we had for each other
mutual discomfort

and i pray i will never be too far that when you are older you will forget i even existed
begging that you will think of my lips in your dreams and kiss them
but you know i never loved you in that way
i always wished you would go away
and cry and get cut like i was from you
but i would always wish your arms would somehow be next to mine
in the classroom

and lastly
all i wish is
you will remember me
when you watch “lifestyle” youtube videos
and think about short stories