Jan 2022
For so long I felt so lost, and yet I was simply refusing to see straight
For So long I felt hopeless, and yet I couldn’t accept that I could help myself.
For So long I felt alone, and yet I never truly was alone.
For so long I felt unloved, and yet I have so many forms of love around me unconditional.
For so long I was unhappy, and yet I was hiding it behind a broken smile.
For so long I thought I needed her, and yet she was the reason I was drowning.
For So long I thought no one could love me, and yet I never let anyone try.
For so long I wonder why anyone would ever love me, and yet to the world I am me.
For so long I questioned how life came to be, and yet every day I saw the lies and deceit
For so long I felt trapped every day, and yet I was so close to escape.
For so long I hinged my self-worth on one person, and yet that person was not “I”
For so long I questioned why I was a horrible person, and yet my actions were not mine alone.
For so long I thought life could only advance with her, and yet I never noticed she was the anchor to my sadness stopping me from moving forward.
For so long I was stuck, and yet you came along.
For so long I never understood how anyone could love me, and yet you looked beyond my “fake self image” and saw the real me.
For so long I pushed anyone away, and yet I let you in.
For so long I questioned “Why Did I let her in” and yet, letting her in set me free.
For so long I was trapped in a Illusion, and yet now I am free.
For so long I justified my own negative ways that were drilled into my head by someone who only cared about themselves, and yet this is only because I had a loving heart.
For so long I asked for a bit of light to guide me freely, and yet that light never came.
For so long I asked for it to work, and yet it never did.
For so long I asked for a door, and yet it was there all along.
For so long I was trapped by nothing more than thoughts and yet the exit was right there.
For so long I let myself be bound to someone, and yet they never deserved it
For so long I wished to be free, and yet I always was.
For so long is nothing now, and yet it was everything.
Everything is now clear, such as reflecting mirror.
Life has a meaning, but is still unclear.
The answer wasn’t I, the answer was You.
I asked for a sign and I received it, just not in the way I thought I would.
In one night, everything changed. And sailed away like a cruise ship departing.
In one instance the door opened, and yet… It can not be closed.
You, gave me what I needed even if you can’t see that.
I love you, though love is just a word. I can never repay you for how you helped me to see me for who I am and not the illusion of hate I was drowning in.
For So long I felt hopeless, and yet I couldn’t accept that I could help myself.
For So long I felt alone, and yet I never truly was alone.
For so long I felt unloved, and yet I have so many forms of love around me unconditional.
For so long I was unhappy, and yet I was hiding it behind a broken smile.
For so long I thought I needed her, and yet she was the reason I was drowning.
For So long I thought no one could love me, and yet I never let anyone try.
For so long I wonder why anyone would ever love me, and yet to the world I am me.
For so long I questioned how life came to be, and yet every day I saw the lies and deceit
For so long I felt trapped every day, and yet I was so close to escape.
For so long I hinged my self-worth on one person, and yet that person was not “I”
For so long I questioned why I was a horrible person, and yet my actions were not mine alone.
For so long I thought life could only advance with her, and yet I never noticed she was the anchor to my sadness stopping me from moving forward.
For so long I was stuck, and yet you came along.
For so long I never understood how anyone could love me, and yet you looked beyond my “fake self image” and saw the real me.
For so long I pushed anyone away, and yet I let you in.
For so long I questioned “Why Did I let her in” and yet, letting her in set me free.
For so long I was trapped in a Illusion, and yet now I am free.
For so long I justified my own negative ways that were drilled into my head by someone who only cared about themselves, and yet this is only because I had a loving heart.
For so long I asked for a bit of light to guide me freely, and yet that light never came.
For so long I asked for it to work, and yet it never did.
For so long I asked for a door, and yet it was there all along.
For so long I was trapped by nothing more than thoughts and yet the exit was right there.
For so long I let myself be bound to someone, and yet they never deserved it
For so long I wished to be free, and yet I always was.
For so long is nothing now, and yet it was everything.
Everything is now clear, such as reflecting mirror.
Life has a meaning, but is still unclear.
The answer wasn’t I, the answer was You.
I asked for a sign and I received it, just not in the way I thought I would.
In one night, everything changed. And sailed away like a cruise ship departing.
In one instance the door opened, and yet… It can not be closed.
You, gave me what I needed even if you can’t see that.
I love you, though love is just a word. I can never repay you for how you helped me to see me for who I am and not the illusion of hate I was drowning in.
