Jan 2022
I’ll never forget my first day home with you
I worked from home on bed as you sat on the other side
A dead weight in between the both of us
Without that weight I would have never known true love
You stared at me and I towards you
You looked at me as if you were trying to figure me out; trying to understand and make sense of this new world around you
I looked at you with the same, wide eyed, quiet look
I observed your habits and shyly tried to comfort you
You slowly inched closer to me throughout the day, dragging your entire bed next to me as a I worked
The person who so very much wanted you and convinced me to bring you into this world of mine (ours at the time), slept through your entire first day home
He awoke only to leave for a job interview that day and to shop for himself
He was late to bring your food home and I was so nervous you were hungry, that I was off to a bad start already
This man, who so very much wanted you, and prided his knowledge in ownership and raising hardy played a role
It was you and I who slowly got to know each-other through training, communication, play and study
This man cuddled you often and perhaps your sweetness and affection can partially be attributed to this
On the days you were meant to be walked but slept in bed with a checked out, very lost soul
I know you provided him with what little happiness he was physiologically able to experience
I know he loved you, but more like a teddy bear
This person became fleeting and you began to distrust him
I'll never forget the night you lost all faith in him
The moment you coiled away, or the look in your eyes on the day he left for good; your demeanor as he closed the door
But I’ll never forget looking into your eyes that first day as you gazed similarly into mine
It was that day I became a mother. We navigated each-other together
And now continue to learn, bond and become closer
You are my best friend and I now know what true, selfless love is
You are the closest thing I have to a child, you are my child. You are a beautiful soul
I promise to be the best caretaker for you possible
Lilou, my Lily, my pet
The day you came into my life has been one of the most precious memories in my journey thus far
I love you unconditionally
I worked from home on bed as you sat on the other side
A dead weight in between the both of us
Without that weight I would have never known true love
You stared at me and I towards you
You looked at me as if you were trying to figure me out; trying to understand and make sense of this new world around you
I looked at you with the same, wide eyed, quiet look
I observed your habits and shyly tried to comfort you
You slowly inched closer to me throughout the day, dragging your entire bed next to me as a I worked
The person who so very much wanted you and convinced me to bring you into this world of mine (ours at the time), slept through your entire first day home
He awoke only to leave for a job interview that day and to shop for himself
He was late to bring your food home and I was so nervous you were hungry, that I was off to a bad start already
This man, who so very much wanted you, and prided his knowledge in ownership and raising hardy played a role
It was you and I who slowly got to know each-other through training, communication, play and study
This man cuddled you often and perhaps your sweetness and affection can partially be attributed to this
On the days you were meant to be walked but slept in bed with a checked out, very lost soul
I know you provided him with what little happiness he was physiologically able to experience
I know he loved you, but more like a teddy bear
This person became fleeting and you began to distrust him
I'll never forget the night you lost all faith in him
The moment you coiled away, or the look in your eyes on the day he left for good; your demeanor as he closed the door
But I’ll never forget looking into your eyes that first day as you gazed similarly into mine
It was that day I became a mother. We navigated each-other together
And now continue to learn, bond and become closer
You are my best friend and I now know what true, selfless love is
You are the closest thing I have to a child, you are my child. You are a beautiful soul
I promise to be the best caretaker for you possible
Lilou, my Lily, my pet
The day you came into my life has been one of the most precious memories in my journey thus far
I love you unconditionally
