When its all of this all at once Holding it all in is not the answer
strength is not to bite my tongue and erase an opinion that seeks to be expressed
I do not wish to be a nuisance to the world But reality isn’t always beautiful And that has to be ok right?
I mean, we can’t work towards our dreams every. single. moment. right?
There’s of course distraction
And needing to belong to myself first And needing to come home to myself,
and not looking for validation Right?
And not judging others for needing that validation And not trying to be perfect, or seemingly so
But also not spilling the oil, the tar From my heart
The venom of being misunderstood
Not sharing that with those who do not see me fully Whose presence in my house is strictly as visitor I am able to escort them out when needed, right?
But what to do when I forget I have the power to say no What to do when I get so lost that my body feels numb
Each task, an impossible feat
What to do when I begin to break at the seams What to do when I notice myself judging every single thing about others
I start to make stories about their imperfections trying to make myself feel better What to do when this pattern ensues?
Accept life as it is sweet Gabrielle, There is nothing to be done It is not about surviving or getting through it It is all there is And this means that there will be pain And it will hurt And you will suffer And that is truth And that is reality And reality is ok