Scared not knowing if I’m going to survive another day.
Not knowing if my health will change my furture.  
Feeling the pain from the tumors growing inside me.
Not knowing if my colon will give me cancer.
Hoping that the doctors won’t find anything else  
Not knowing if family and friends are really there for me.
Crying each end every night due to the pain I feel.
Not knowing if I’m going to see my children grew up.
Sleeping to get away from the pain.
Feeling my nerves and muscles fighting in my body.
Trying to hold things in my hand, but can’t.
My stomach is growing each day.
Being able to work only in my dreams.
Living with multiple illnesses is not easy.
Being able to hug my children is out of the question.
Not knowing which illness will attack me next.
Taking multiple medications is my life.
Feeling week easy and every day.
Getting out the bed is getting harder to do.
Worrying that my illness will take over.

I’m For Ever Scared!!!!!!!!
More than ever.