I gaze up to the night, and wonder where you are, im not really sure if you’re really here. I think deeply to myself, do you true exist, is it all a joke I somehow had just  missed. I asked so much of you, imploring in a prayer, I waited for an answer, and nothing I found there. I even made a promise to live a better life!! yet nothing much did change amidst all this heavy  strife!! Then I realize that, things do really change, everyday my soul , encounter’s peace so strange. I look up humbly so, in awe but with no fear. I find im thanking you, for me still being…..here