I am so cold in this summer heat,
Frozen in an endless defeat,
I see you and your heart beating,
I see your love, my dear, retreating,
I tried so hard to break free of your grasp,
But your tears trapped me in their clasp,
You were the one who asked me to stay,
Yet you are the one whose gone today,
Left me with not even a goodbye,
Left me here to slowly die,
I lost our child, I lost our life,
And here I stand with my lonely knife,
All I needed was to feel just fine,
Just a little bit like you were mine,
But I can not even bear you a kid,
My body's production has been forbid,
In silence I hold such terrible secrets,
Loneliness is all my heart now permits,
I hate you for forcing me into this darkness,
Of a sadness I can ultimately never confess.