There are some things in life that are hard to get over
Take, for example, biting your nails
or the irresistible urge to pick at scabs.
Another thing, is a type of person,
the type of person we all have in our lives,
at some time or point in our timelines.
They start out great, funny, kind
the perfect friend that lights up the world.
Time passes and you become closer
with this golden friend,
and you notice
that when you look at them, it's different.
Palms sweaty, heart clenching,
and you can't seem to stop
looking at them.
And it's the worst thing
because now everything
is ruined.
How can you stand it,
being around this person,
if all you can do is admire them?
You can't.
But you soldier on
because it is so hard
to just let that feeling go.
And day after day
you think you see them
falling for you too,
but you'll never be sure
and you can never get your hopes up.
But you just can't quit them.
No matter how hard you try,
they will not go away,
but really you don't want them to.
Years go by and they are still
settling into your brain,
burrowing deeper and deeper.
Until you love them,
Until they love you
or they leave you.
How do you break
a habit like that person?
How do you remove
the tumor that they are
from yourself?
How do you stop
wanting to be with that person
always?
Is it even possible,
to manage their disease
if the cure is so
impossibly close and far away?
So far...
I haven't found a way.