she slept with a lot of
men she had said
most she didn't remember
and didn't care to
love is a complex useless
ugly thing
she had said
but ***?
*** is beautifully simple
absolute physical pleasure
in the purest and dirtiest
ways at the same time
--she loved how ***** it was
said that *** was meant to be
rough and savage--
I slept with her too
a few times and
I can't lie
she knew
her way around
and she made me
more than a little nervous
but I was young
and confident
and eager to please
so I ****** her
and a week or so later
I did again
and soon I agreed
when she said
*** can be perfect
and simple
when left there
and I agreed when she said
it's only love that makes
such an ugly mess of things
and when you have
both love and ***
one normally ruins
the other

but I grew up
and moved away
never had contact
with her
met multiple women
but I was never nervous
like I was with her
I never found that
simplicity

I'll never forget
that *****
and her
utilitarian
****** philosophy
with her ***** but
somehow beautiful mind
and ***** but somehow
beautiful body
I've fallen in and
out of love since
those days
--mostly out--
so it seems that
I only continue to
prove her right
wherever she is