You disappoint me.
You light me up.
You freeze my bones,
And you set my soul on fire.
I want you
Just as much as I fear you
And both consume me every night
Through the haze of dreams
In which your face becomes vaguer every moment.
You hurt me,
Because you can heal everything
And you just don't.
You are my faith
Because you love me even when I fail
And you came back.
But I hate you
Because you deny me.
But I love you
Because it is in my blood.
I am in awe of you
Of us
Of how impossible it is that we mean so much
To both of us.
I scorn you, as well,
In the sad moments when my heart screams for your words
And is crushed by your silence.
This love,
It consumes me.
You consume me.
No matter how much I lose
There is always further to fall.
No matter how happy I am
It's never as ecstatic as I could be
(As I was)
In your arms.