Oh how I wish
How I wish I could
Spend my life in complete slumber
To be isolated from this world
To retire to fantasies of my desires.

To lose all my morals
To give in to the voices in my
Head. To take the first step
Towards pure darkness.
Seems easier than
maintaining this persona
This nice guy act it's sickening.

Everyday I feel like I'm withering away
Only the perfectly curated version of
Myself remains. How sickening ?
Just be yourself they said
It's okay to be you
How foolish

If only you knew the darkness
If only you knew the despair
That lies in wait.  If only
You knew the disdain , the
Digust , behind every hello.

To be lonely is to free
To be loved is to caged
So why , why do you insist
Why do you keep getting in
My way dear conscious