the sunlight warms the grateful earth; the river slides into the sea. the mirror shows an endless void: there must be something wrong with me;
the breeze caresses laughing boughs like blossoms nuzzled by the bee, but on my face it's numb and cold: there must be something wrong with me;
according to these other views, there’s beauty that i cannot see — and since the error’s not in them: there must be something wrong with me.
Anhedonia is one of the negative symptoms of schizophrenia. It means an inability to gain pleasure from activities that are usually pleasurable. Like not being able to taste when you have a cold, but for everything.