Nov 2021
dear j,
"leaves are on the ground, fall has come...blue skies turning gray, like my love...i tried to carry you, and make you whole...but it was never enough, i must go...and who is gonna save you when i'm gone?...and who will watch over you when i'm gone?...you say you cared for me, but hide it well...how can you love someone, not yourself?...who will break your fall, who will you blame?...i can't go on and let you lose it all, more than i can take...who will ease your pain?...ease your pain...and who will give you strength when you're not strong?...who will watch over you when i'm gone away?...snow is on the ground, winter's come...you long to hear my voice, but i'm long gone..."
your eyes met mine today, twice.
i looked away..
did you mean that?
pinch me...maybe i was still asleep?
when we wake up,
are we still together? . . .
i can't help but think
about your bare wrist...
i can't help but think
about your bare wrist . . .
"you're not getting rid of me that easy"
i hear you say...
"you're stuck with me"
on repeat...
your voice once warm & sounding like home,
making me flinch awaiting pain to follow as my stomach turns from immense sadness...
i wish you would want me too..
i wish i felt like home to you..
comfort..
i want to fall for you
without caution . . .
i'm not ashamed of loving you . . .
are my fingers still tightly
laced with yours? . . .
i don't know.
yet part of me knows.
and that's the scariest thing
i could feel..
"it's hard to feel you slipping through
my fingers are so numb..."
i reach outward into the dark for you...
are you still there? . . .
i long to hear your voice.
are you long gone? . . .
sincerely,
d
"leaves are on the ground, fall has come...blue skies turning gray, like my love...i tried to carry you, and make you whole...but it was never enough, i must go...and who is gonna save you when i'm gone?...and who will watch over you when i'm gone?...you say you cared for me, but hide it well...how can you love someone, not yourself?...who will break your fall, who will you blame?...i can't go on and let you lose it all, more than i can take...who will ease your pain?...ease your pain...and who will give you strength when you're not strong?...who will watch over you when i'm gone away?...snow is on the ground, winter's come...you long to hear my voice, but i'm long gone..."
your eyes met mine today, twice.
i looked away..
did you mean that?
pinch me...maybe i was still asleep?
when we wake up,
are we still together? . . .
i can't help but think
about your bare wrist...
i can't help but think
about your bare wrist . . .
"you're not getting rid of me that easy"
i hear you say...
"you're stuck with me"
on repeat...
your voice once warm & sounding like home,
making me flinch awaiting pain to follow as my stomach turns from immense sadness...
i wish you would want me too..
i wish i felt like home to you..
comfort..
i want to fall for you
without caution . . .
i'm not ashamed of loving you . . .
are my fingers still tightly
laced with yours? . . .
i don't know.
yet part of me knows.
and that's the scariest thing
i could feel..
"it's hard to feel you slipping through
my fingers are so numb..."
i reach outward into the dark for you...
are you still there? . . .
i long to hear your voice.
are you long gone? . . .
sincerely,
d
