Oct 2021
I’m the kind of person who reads the terms and conditions before ticking the box
I’m well aware it’s mostly unnecessary
But the one day I don’t I know I’ll be in store for a shock
And when that happens
I’ll be sure to get whiplash from the backlash of ruining everything again
But I’ll offset that by sitting back on the beach
Staring into the oceans wide open door
With the overriding feeling of joyous relief that it’ll all be over soon
Probably by the time the tide washes over my feet
Despite the uncomfortable nature of knowing it’ll break your heart to watch me succumb to it all
The taste of salty water will never taste more apt
Becoming the much needed remedy to the wounds that’ll heal and turn into a full bloom
Maybe while you wait, you can download another meaningless app
Designed to make life easier
But is far more likely to induce a stress related heart attack
If you’re lucky though
You can end up existing on a life support machine in a cashless society
The lack of energy required is deliciously appealing to me
But I’d be understanding if that fate wasn’t what you dreamt of
Most girls envisage their wedding days
Not what age they’ll take up a rarely seen spare hospital bed
And there it is, that funny feeling
Of turning every eventuality into a morbid vacation to a deathly destination
All because it ironically makes me smile
I say to you it’s just harmless fun but when everything is said and done
I know you don’t believe me
You’re much more switched on than I’ve ever given you credit for
And with that hit of reality
My vulnerability heightens causing my chest to relentlessly tighten
As the consequences of trying to manipulate you one final time
Have become far too overwhelming to ignore
I guess that’s why I always end up coming back to you
A cynic would call it guilt but the romantic in me can’t walk away from what we’ve built
I know I make mistakes
I know what I say sometimes is hard to take
But I hope you believe me when I say this time
While we’re standing together in blissful silence on the shore
Taking pretty pictures of the sunset by the specifically placed trap door
That you’re the only person I ever want to call “mine”
And if you don’t see straight through me
We’ll be just fine
I’m well aware it’s mostly unnecessary
But the one day I don’t I know I’ll be in store for a shock
And when that happens
I’ll be sure to get whiplash from the backlash of ruining everything again
But I’ll offset that by sitting back on the beach
Staring into the oceans wide open door
With the overriding feeling of joyous relief that it’ll all be over soon
Probably by the time the tide washes over my feet
Despite the uncomfortable nature of knowing it’ll break your heart to watch me succumb to it all
The taste of salty water will never taste more apt
Becoming the much needed remedy to the wounds that’ll heal and turn into a full bloom
Maybe while you wait, you can download another meaningless app
Designed to make life easier
But is far more likely to induce a stress related heart attack
If you’re lucky though
You can end up existing on a life support machine in a cashless society
The lack of energy required is deliciously appealing to me
But I’d be understanding if that fate wasn’t what you dreamt of
Most girls envisage their wedding days
Not what age they’ll take up a rarely seen spare hospital bed
And there it is, that funny feeling
Of turning every eventuality into a morbid vacation to a deathly destination
All because it ironically makes me smile
I say to you it’s just harmless fun but when everything is said and done
I know you don’t believe me
You’re much more switched on than I’ve ever given you credit for
And with that hit of reality
My vulnerability heightens causing my chest to relentlessly tighten
As the consequences of trying to manipulate you one final time
Have become far too overwhelming to ignore
I guess that’s why I always end up coming back to you
A cynic would call it guilt but the romantic in me can’t walk away from what we’ve built
I know I make mistakes
I know what I say sometimes is hard to take
But I hope you believe me when I say this time
While we’re standing together in blissful silence on the shore
Taking pretty pictures of the sunset by the specifically placed trap door
That you’re the only person I ever want to call “mine”
And if you don’t see straight through me
We’ll be just fine
