As I enter the doors
I feel this rush of adrenaline
overcoming my body
I take a few steps forward,
Then suddenly stop to take a deep breath
I then start walking again
I keep my pace, with my shoulders broad
And chin high above me
I turn to the left

Oh no! There he is!
The one who I desperately would die for
I can sense his eyes skimming through the hall,
Looking for an excusable reason to be left alone
I quickly turn right down the stairs
Trying to avoid our awkward language
we call silence

Then I see my best friend
The one who I love secretly hate
We exchange hugs
Then leave unsatisfied
I keep still for a few moments
Thinking that I do not belong here
Nor will I ever
I try to make a run for it

But then my head keeps spinning
I don't know what to do
So I just sit down
Take a deep breath
And put on a fake smile
Just like the rest of them!