Sadness thrives when you are most vulnerable. It consumes you when you dwell on the past. It wants to eat up your happiness, So you can not feel it anymore. It injects mourning into your soul, So that is all that you feel. I know that it is hard. I will not say that I know what you're going through. I will not say that I understand, Because death has always been a subject that perplexes me beyond words. I will say, that you will survive. You must rejoice in the memories you have shared. Not in the simple truth you are scared. You must face reality so that you do not lose yourself in a fantasy. He would want you to go on. He would want you to remember all the times that made your life worth living. Not the times that you feel you aren't. Do not dwell in your sadness. Live in your happiness.