Dear hope
Why
Why  do you always feel just out of reach
Further than the stars above
Yet closer
Closer than I am to me  
The distant light you give
Is Warmer than than any flame
Yet
It’s Bitter and cold all at the same
Dear hope
Where were you in the past
When i thought any day may be my last
When i was busy trying to shatter myself just like glass
Never building myself up
like a blind man i could never see
All the things i could eventually be  
Dear hope
Why must we do this
You press my buttons like i'm nothing short of a broken machine
As if im to be thrown away and scrapped
As if i can’t even be recycled into something new
Something better
Dear hope
Today i was reading the paper When i got the news
You had passed on
For hours i couldn’t believe you were gone
Hours passed and i couldn’t speak
For hours I layed there feeling too weak
Too weak to move or hell even to think
But yet my mind was racing
Straight down the track it went
headed straight for a crash
Dear hope
It’s been three weeks since the crash
And when i awoke i was surrounded
But despite everything around me
Despite everything that had happened
I found myself drawn to a familiar glow
I couldn’t believe my eyes
And  couldn’t help but cry
Because in that glow you were there
Radiating your brilliant heat
Shining brighter than the stars that you were once so far from
Then
That’s when you spoke
You told me you had only left so that you could find me
The me who was had lost all senses
The me that could neither see, hear ,nor feel you
It was at this time you grabbed my arm
And promised to shield me from my own self harm
But before I could utter a word
You were gone
Yet somehow i knew you were still there
I only wish i could of said one small thing
Dear hope
Thank you