Who am I? I am the girl who lined her ducks in a row. I am the girl who laminated her high school graduation plan. I am the girl who hung the requirements above her bed. I am the girl who cried the first time she got a C on a test. I am the girl who has tried so hard her entire life. I am the girl that everyone used for notes. I am the girl that kept the class afloat. I am the girl who always knew what she wanted. I am the girl who had it all figured out. I am the girl with a plan. I am the girl who attended three schools at once. I am the girl who graduated with honors in a technical school. I am the girl most likely to be successful.
Who am I? I am the girl who decided to go to college during the pandemic. I am the girl who thought I would regret waiting. I am the girl who thought I would graduate in four years. I am now the girl debating dropping out. I am the girl who has given up. I am the girl who is tired beyond belief. I am the girl being rejected. I am the girl who is failing. Failing to stay afloat myself. Failing to meet the requirements. I am the girl who is doing well but not enough. I am the girl who has forgotten. Forgotten how to live, laugh, and enjoy life. I am the girl who is stressed. I am the girl that adults tell to relax. I am the girl who has lost herself. I am the girl with no identity.
I am the girl with no identity. Because my entire life was future-based. Because I was the most likely to succeed. Because I did everything in my power to be the best. Because I still was not doing enough. I am the girl who was supposed to be an inspiration. I am the girl who was considered lucky because I always had a plan. Now I am the girl who is lost.