i fall prey to men on the internet
like most every girl
(though i consider myself extraordinary).

they say things to me like
"i'd do you a million times over"
"i just want to kiss that face"
"hold that body"
"bite that neck"
and i let them say all of it
without protest
(though i consider myself immune).

through the internet they tempt me
violate me
and i let them
willingly
in this way
i am like every other girl
(i wish i wasn't).

pleasure
and guilt
go hand in hand
down the rollercoaster ride
i've belted myself into,
locked
and loaded
(i am sorry that i am a girl).

i wish instantly it never happened
when it is over
and it's not even real
(i am sorry i am pathetic).