in 2008 i got given a dictionary
a prize for being able to go to high school
and only recently have i learned of words
that they would think are too cruel

i would call 2013 me an eccedentesiast
bet you don't even know what that means
it's a person who fakes a smile
i only didn't watching my computer screen

afraid of death and afraid of dying
i have been since i was thirteen
that's called thanatophobia
it means something awful to me

don't call me ordinary or i'll get koinophobia
fear of the very phrase and definition
an ordinary life, one i won't be satisfied
with if i died, an unsuccessful mission

someone who understood all the words
without a google search
wouldn't be friends with me
but i could make it work

language is complex no matter what
one that you've known since birth
and if i'm gonna be true to my word
i hate what they're all worth