At 3AM I hear your laughter echo through the house, and I let it ring through my memories the way the summer breeze blows through my open window.

3:01 I touch my lips and remember the way they used to press against yours, and I let the feeling sink down the way my exhausted body sinks into my mattress.

3:02 I remember the way you would grab my wrists, and i'd wince as the pain shot through me, the way my teeth pierce my cheek in my mid night  nervousness.

3:03 I realize all the time I've wasted, between 3:00 and this very moment.

3:04 I realize I've wasted more than minutes on you. I've wasted months, years.

3:05 I clear my head. Your laughter becomes absent as it really was, your lips aren't mine to kiss, and my wrists are only pained by my own hand.

3:06 I remember the past 5 minutes, for the infinite time since you left me.