And I’d go to church in the mountains and sing praises with the crows in the pines to a god most misunderstood, rarely seen or heard; the lynx of the feeling in my sternum, the missing word in my vocabulary that has bought permanent real estate on the tip of my tongue. And then she looks at you with Medusa eyes that turn you to stone. You lie there naked arms and legs woven together like sacred silk, the warm blanket of god, the purring lynx.