They smile, and they attend social functions and are in pages of a city's social diary, a mockery of a democracy the Hearsts and the Bloombergs and the others rolling in it so their aging women can have too much plastic surgery because time happens to the elites, too, and cancer and unhappiness and the smiles hide the discontent and the slow death and they are afraid of us, can't bear to be with us, this other species we are and once, with my now X, at a fundraiser for his elite boarding high school I listened to a pretentious speech that was so intolerable underneath the canopy of a white tent in the middle of a gigantic field with every grass blade evenly spaced and the same height, and the soil filled with nitrite. And the speech ended and the applause served as cover, like brush and I ran out into the open air and flattened the springy grass and I walked away because I could take no more