baby its been a long day
and i cant sleep
up thinking about you
and counting "sheep"
meaning the demons in my mind that surround my thoughts with negativity
each and every step of the way
they're right there
every turn
every twist
every fall
they're right there,
to follow me, to make sure i keep them in my head
to make sure i don't forget the person i used to be
to make those thoughts come back in a split second without impulse
to make my stomach cringe
keeping it knotting up to make sure i feel the pain
to have my throat dry as having cotton mouth from the first time we smoked together,
and eyes water like rain drops we felt during our first kiss
such things in my mind,
the power they have over me
i guess they just need somebody to love them to
just as i used to love you