when I was young my uncle was so broken from something his daughter did that he shot himself in the chest.
he felt that his heart was so hurt that he should help it to shatter completely he never once thought that maybe he could fix the broken pieces he just took that leap to not feel broken anymore
I think about that a lot how maybe someday I could take that leap too to you know, end my pain and suffering but then I remember heβs still living with that pain how if he moves an inch in the wrong direction he becomes paralyzed with pain
and then I change my mind because I would rather experience this hurt now than to live with it my entire life