I sit with my head in my palm,
Tears dripping leaving eyes feeling like sand.
I shouldn't care so much
I should be so immune
But it cuts the scar and always creates
A brand new wound within its place.

I fake a smile, and pop a pill
To take away the anxiety and fake thrill
Of being rejected again
It hurts so bad
Like I want it to happen
But I stare at you
Wondering why
I'll never be good enough in your eyes.

Then I'll fall in love
With someone new
But it wont matter
Because I'm ******* stuck with you
And I know you still resent me
And I know you look right through
The very pieces I so desperately
Want to share with you

I wish Goodbye was easy,
But it never is,
Especially when it involves
Lots of dogs and kids
How do you say goodbye
To a life so comfortable and seemingly nice
To plunge in a world unknown
Never to pretend that my heart is full of lies.

I hate the way I love you
I love the way I hate you
It's like a painful game
And the loser is the only winner
In this ****** up game.
I want to say goodbye
I want to say hello
To the person in this world
Who wants to cherish my soul.