I live to prove people wrong about me. With the skinny jokes. Also the *** jokes I get from my atheist ex-boyfriend. I handle a lot. I hate *** jokes because I understand what they are referencing but I don't get them like normal people do. I think *** jokes are degrading of every female anyone who ever explicitly joke about. It's like can you not degrade people in front of me? I think *** jokes are sexist, desperate pleas for wanting romance. It's awful how gross humans can be. Just because I am beautiful and have confidence doesn't mean my primal instincts are all there. I have mental illnesses and trust issues; therefore, my primal instincts aren't all accessible.
I enjoy being polite, a good human and respecting others. I won't go have a fling because movies say I should. Romeo and Juliet had a fling then they both died. So no I won't do as the rom-coms say I should do. I want to create my own love story. One that is soulful, rich with good memories, sparks flying and the earth fading away.
I know it sounds like an essay about rejecting society's definition of love but I know what I want so yes in a way I am old fashioned.