mexico
by Closeddoorsandwelcomemats
I am so afraid that the longer I stay in one place the more people around me will come to know and understand me and the thought paralyzes me
Am I pushing them away because I can’t stomach that level of vulnerability or does it really take just a few quick months for people to learn to love and then get sick of me
I want to run away and start again but I’ve already done that twice and both times it’s taken less than a year to start to feel that way again
Is that empty weight in my chest really called loneliness and why is it that heavy and how long do I have to carry this around for
how far across the world do I need to drive and how long do I need to disappear to remind myself to stop packing these insecurities at the bottom of my suitcase when I go