lost between immensity and eternity, caught between lieutenants♥ who both love me. & what’s more, i’ll never be able to choose: they can’t convince me of their truth. “why can’t they understand i’m stuck?” “why can’t i remove myself from this rut?” —they offered me head of their revolution! promised me black roads & nibiru cataclysms— ...
...do i want both?
you won’t ever feel how it’s like to live a life like me you don’t know what life is like when you’re like me they’ll never find a cure for those who are like me they’ll never understand what life is like for me
i’ve tried not to show i’m pussyfooting around this: i’ve tried so hard to hide all my knickknacking because the eyes of a trailboss♥ can mistake your innocence with guilt and blame yeah, i’m caught between two lieutenants with who i share a mutual stint, either i digest one & ***** the other: or wish i didn’t have anyone to call “sir”♥ ...
...to begin with.
Fractured relationships are best solved with mutual trust and incremental forgiveness. Although I believe I've been taught the hard way, this could show my easy way out. If I'd let it, that is.