Such a broken-tortured soul
Once filled with such good intent-
is now reduced to ruin
with all his feathers burnt and bent.

A heavenly soldier-a warrior of light
Yes-that was him-back in the day
Before of course this perilous strife
that would lead to his astray.

From day one; after the first-
he was always to be cast out
by his family-his only friends-
They didn't hang about.

And ain't it nice they left him
all alone-
These so called true friends of his?
to meet his bitter and ****** end
Quite ghastly and full of gris?

Well-that's quite harsh-
he must admit-
It's not their fault after all-
I was the one who fell from grace
I was the first to fall.

Take the blame-hide the mistakes-
Always continuing the same routine-
but when it comes to praying to God-
he coughs up blood and speaks his final words
To the void- in the form of Sam and Dean.

Because after all-they're still his friends-
Both saved and raised from perdition-
That's what they deserve after all this time-
And perhaps a life with less of his ambitions.

They'll have each other- in the end
and that's all they've ever wanted.
No more room for angels
(I overstayed)
so they need no more be haunted.

I hope they know I'm sorry-
that I did my best at last-
Because in my fall, I secured their future
even though I still apologize -(and can't be forgiven)-
for the past.

And that is what the angel ponders
As he struggles not to die-
That in the end-What's the use-
in praying for such a hopeless case
as a broken soul
like I?

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