Here is what I know to be true
You have been faithful and kind to me
I know you're to be my deepest desire
I know you are good and full of tender mercies
I know if I just turn away that your arms are open and ready for me
I can trust you with everything because everything is yours already

I know any strength I have comes from your spirit within me
I haven't leaned into that
Which is probably why I haven't moved from this bed in two weeks
I'm too small and too afraid to face what this life holds for me
But I know you overcame the world on my behalf

God, I'm just so tired of waiting and trying
I'm tired of hurting other people and hurting myself
I just need you to do something with me, anything please
I'm begging you
Don't leave me here stranded
I know that you haven't

I just don't know what you're doing
Why you made me like this
I just don't feel allowed to want anything or hope for anything
It just becomes a huge risk for anyone involved
I ruin lives including my own
And I feel like you let me

I don't know how to give it all up and leave it behind me
But I feel like that's what you're asking of me
So if it is, please
GIVE ME SOMETHING ELSE