the aching feeling in my chest
just wouldn't go away
it was almost as bad as the time
you tried to cut me open
to inspect my heart and mind
i swear
i thought i was never able to feel again

you never handled me
with much care at all
but then again
since when did i ever mind
you walking all over me
and using me for your own good
you were never ever kind

you left me without a word
now the pain is back again
i wouldn't even call it pain
because i can't feel anymore
i'm practically void of feelings

but you learn something new
every single day
and today i've learnt
that emptiness
is the worst pain of all
and that feelings never really go away
and that no matter how hard you try
to survive and be void of feelings
all at the same time
you'll never be able to get by

e.j