Dark circles around my eyes move to the table But they seem to be less permanent there. A night of small glasses turns into a morning of tall mugs Both filled to the brim with fake happiness And false healing. One more sip will make me forget But one more cup will make me remember. Playing tug-of-war in my cerebrum. My hands pour another cup But my eyes can't grasp that concept So these burns on my hands are the only reminders Of last night Along with the bruises on my side And the throbbing in my ears All of which will fade Like the disappointment of my adventures. I can't shy away from all light But all it does is highlight my flaws. So I throw on a long sleeve shirt That covers my palms Because the last thing I need is a Physic Telling me my past As I walk down streets I wish I could have forgotten months ago. But the fabric is so thin The wind even knows what I'm trying to hide. I'll plug myself into my fake world And I'll tell you it's to protect myself But really I'm saving you from adding me to your list of lifetime disappointments. Because that's all I'll ever be In my own eyes. I'll walk home Hair frizzed Makeup smeared Because I couldn't be bothered with the mirror Or the mirror couldn't be bothered with me. So say your prayer for me I wonder if God will listen Because every time I call I go straight to voicemail And I'm tired of crying on an answering machine That nobody checks. My winter coat isn't even strong enough to protect me But maybe if I added a layer of you I might finally feel safe. So please Make me feel safe.