Like your head pounds
for nicotine
My head screams
to write feelings
While your fingers shake
for what you need
My fingers trace letters
on the back of my knee
You have an illness and would you look at that, so do I
We find hobbies with our hands and tell ourselves we're getting by
While you are out
and you are drinking
I am home
and I am thinking
I'm alone
And I am sinking
Discovering things that were better off mysteries
Slowly discovering what is killing me
Before it kills me
But I need it like it's been getting me high
It's my little hobby,
and it's getting me by
You have an illness and would you look at that, so do I
We find hobbies with our hands and tell ourselves we're getting by
I find a hobby for my head, and somehow I'm getting by