is what you want to ask me.
i cut for my mother who hurt me.
i cut for my father who hit me.
i cut for the boy who called me fat.
i cut for the boys who laughed at my wrist.
i cut for the girl who left me behind.
i cut for the girl who twisted my words.
i cut for the mentors who brought me back down.
i cut for myself who never found the courage within me.
but the reason i hate you as much as i do
is because i cut for you.
before and after.
before, as in the time were then.
after, as in the time we are now.
before and after,
since you were the one who set my demons free.
you were the one who let them out of their cage,
and let them road around within me.
and you stood back,
and watched,
and admired,
and smiled,
and saw
me suffer
from what you have done to me.