i dig my nails into my palms and allow them to caress and sculpt an indentation into my skin as if the sting will mask some kind of vendetta that my subconscious holds over me as a result my unprecedented thoughts lead me through a dark tunnel with no silver lining at the end because i feel like i dont deserve you because i feel as if you are simply the beginning and the end i am not morbidly mourning my own self destruction, but i had forgotten my priorities when i first laid eyes on you the innocence of my being had been lost because every pore had been filled with the presence of yourself it is incredibly challenging to explain the exasperating and overwhelming draft you add to the room like a casting call for your own role - identity i could play it over and over again like a torn up passion sprinkling its own grace over the particular stereotype like those films and stories of love and deep movement you are simply the blindness that i feel to all of my surroundings that inevitably keeps me from recognizing the beginning and the end of myself