the color red
the color of blood
bloodshot eyes from the night before
trying things you said you never would
doing things you said you never would
your mind said beware of those people
the ones with the pretty smiles
the "i dont care personalities"
you didn't listen
but who does
no one likes listening
would rather go against anything
that's the type of person you are
the red shirt
blood stains on the sheets
unrippened tomatoes
all that was red brought back the worst memories
used to hate those memories
but then you went away
said you'd be back, and somewhere in the back of my mind i knew it was a lie
i ****** up the guilt
the in the back of my mind thinking
"it's because of me"
held back the tears
and let you go
letting you being one the best things
because not so bitter over you anymore
found someone new
and
realizing that i used to hate the color red
because of you
and now i hate the color blue
because i'm realizing that the hurt and pain
of everything ending
is all so new