At first I tried to blame it
On my broken home
Who left me crying
Night after night
Alone
And then I tried to blame
The bully from school
Who did her best to make me feel
Ugly and uncool
Blaming my friends
That's what I did next
Because they never cared and always left
Told me I was a mess
So then I blamed my boyfriend
Who broke up with me one night
The only thing I had at the time
That made me feel just right
I blamed school
And my failing grades
The disappointment in myself
That would never change
Blaming all the girls in school
Who were prettier than I
And made up rumours about me
That made me want to hide
Blamed the suicide of my soul mate
Because he was all I had
And it killed me to know
He was never coming back
But what I didnt realize
This whole time
that is was I who did this to me
The fault was mine
I let the demons in
I torn myself down
I cut my skin
Although I might be better now
I tied the nooses
I cried myself to sleep
I made impossible expectations
That I possibly couldn't meet
I was to blame
It was me
Im my own worst enemy
I ruined everything