Eyes familiar with the small closing of the lid
like a door slamming shut
I'm on the other side

Foot steps leave and I am left
the cold floor pressing against my naked arm left
trying to push me up

Heavy,
I remember what I hear and don't
I fight, me and them
toe to toe
I lay still
my body will not respond to ambivalence

I find a calm sliver
the lid returns to open
slowly safely
making sure I get the experience

I'm in a different room
but my body is the same
I have been so many in one