I am sick with all this fumbling through the not yet darkened hours let the anchor of the life that was be now ripped away complete let mourning of its passing hasten and begin, and in the gritted eating of the dust find me a solace and release of all the **** of ravaged trust But this grey and bitter twilight, this death of death not yet is an illness to the days that must be borne by bones my own and every morning, in the mouring, I would find a silence still, sweet, and complete but this unknown hesitation, this nagging fainting hope for all that was and should of been is worse than any dying, such a thing sweet, final, and complete
So fly, vanish, disappear, depart! Leave to haunt another heart! Go and keep your light glowing somewhere upon another set cindered coals leave me here to mourn your parting, to let this story fade in the growing old. Or for God sake, and for mine, become aquainted finally now with the valley of the floor set your words to groaning and to praying and to begging in the night and when your knees have grown sore and stiff from the bending of your will all might be returned with joy and sweeter pain than weeping at the sight of a prodigal returning and the end of long numb night Until then, and if even there should ever come a when, all is grey and dark and sick as minute hands remind and memories sharply *****